This Is The Way I Spent The Day: Runnin' Back To You

I leave for Dekalb tomorrow. I"m going to meet with Beatrice on Thursday. I have to make sure I have all the necessary paperwork from MCC and NIU. I'm rather skeptical about the entire trip. I might not have a place to stay for the couple nights that I am there. A lot has yet to happen this week. I have to find a suitable song to sing for my audition. I'm having second thoughts again. I took my quiz for history and now I just have to write the response to the discussion prompt and then write on someone else's assignment. Blah - school work bites!

Gah - So much is going on. I don't even think my parents know I wont be around. I also have to find an appropriate gift for Alicia and Aaron. The bridal shower is on Saturday. I have to sacrifice something....

Here's the basic layout.

Wednesday: go to dekalb, chill... do homework... find a place to stay...
Thursday: meet with Beatrice... Go next door to Jewel and buy a Father's Day card. Meet with Sharon Wyland and talk over the posibility of returning to the program. chill, do homework.
Friday: Finish geography homework. Sleep.
Saturday: Dilemna Dilemna Dilemna.... American Idol registration in the AM... how to get there from Dekalb is going to be tricky. I have to then somehow make it to Alicia's bridal shower which is not anywhere near Dekalb. Those two events will be confusing to coordinate. One of her friends will drive me to Elgin and then I have to find a ride home. There's a bonfire at 8 PM. 

I Get Shotgun

[Error: unknown template qotd]Fear is something that isn't as apparent to me now that I have Jim as a guide. If fear strikes, Jim is always there to give me reassurance. These days, traveling in the night time is more fun than traveling by day. Reason being that the sun is quite bothersome to my eyes. When I do travel, I am wary of any place that is more confined and dark. Although, having a very big black canine guardian allows any stranger with bad intentions to steer clear of me. Paranoia is my middle name. Even if it is day time, any sudden noise is a time for me to turn my head and look behind me. It gets rather tiresome after a while. Although, even if I try, the feeling cannot be shaken off. Am I going to live in this constant cloak of paranoia? There has to be some sort of relief.

Rose will pick me up around 2:30 to head to Dekalb. My parents are unaware of my leave. Like I said, there's a lot to be done while I am away. I really should start packing right now. I need to find the proper paperwork. I can accomplish all of this in a couple hours right? I called JS about Jim's weird behavior. Hopefully someone will call me back soon. I can't help but be anxious about the possibility of the problem being medical related. If it's back pain, it's treatable, but if it's hip displasia, I'm screwed out of a dog. From what JS said, LP crosses are sensitive and have sensitive backs. I'm just kind of flustered and nervous. It's a big deal and I wish I could make the pain go away or make him feel better.

My history books should really stay here, but I have a feeling that I could get help if I bring them with. NIU's library has a wonderful resource room. Perhaps I can stil weedle in using my old OneCard. I need to use the scanner and have it read the history books to me. I can't believe it's getting to this point. At least the quiz part of my homework is finished. Writing two to three paragraphs per response by five before midnight tonight shouldn't be too hard. I also have to get a move-on with geography and start studying for the math placement test I have scheduled for Tuesday. I just don't get a break, do I?

Did I mention that I talked with Adam on Sunday? I can start letting go. Even if I wanted to date him again, he said he's not ready for a relationship at this point in his life. To be honest, I'm grateful he told me this. I never said I wanted to let him go completely. But now that I know he feels the way he does, I can breathe again. I'm still going to hurt. A 4 month relationship before with Jarrod had me grieving for almost a year. I hope to move on with my serious relationship with Adam. We're still friends, but I'm wary of other possible relationships. Half of me wants to meet someone in Detroit, but I highly doubt this will happen. The cool thing is, he's going to come with me to my eye doctor appointment on July 10. I voiced my anxiety about what the examination will reveal. He reassured me that he'll come.

Crud, it's almost noon. I have a little over two hours until I get picked up. A lot has to be done before then, I'll post when I get the chance.

Break Away

Sitting in an empty computer lab using a computer with Magic on it is wonderful. I am so glad that I have connections here at NIU. I prefer to be in here alone. *grin* I'm not bored per say, but I don't feel like doing any history homework. I have geography homework due on Friday. So, there's a bunch that must be done. Tomorrow is a busy day. I have to drag all of my geography stuff with me to NIU and to meet up with Beatrice. I have to organize what I want to say to her.

On a completely random note, I don't understand why chicks obsess over their makeup. Just because I don't have makeup on doesn't mean I wont go out in public. Maybe it's because I don't care about my appearance or it's just that I don't care what others think. I think make up just masks the person. I prefer to have a raw face with only emotions than a face that is caked with makeup. The stuff is vile.

Bah - I guess I'll go do my homework now. *sigh* I need to find food first though. Hmm... perhaps I should've brought my popcorn with me. Heh.. I know I'm posting a lot, but that just explains my utter boredom.