Jazzin'

I performed in my first ever gig today. Actually, it was the spring concert and I was in jazz band. My three solos were not as bad as I thought they would be. I didn't blanch when I played. I didn't fall into the wrong key. Yes! Major points for me! I am happy with the first time experience. I am willing to solo again and join the ensemble. In fact, I am registered for the fall. I'll post videos of the concert when I get them off my camera.
Oh! I also feel like I did really well on Hillstrom's test. Music appreciation is one of my favorite classes this semester. In fact, I think it is my favorite class. I got almost every question down pat. Then the one short answer about 12 tone series came up and I blanked out. I probably wrote some ridiculous answer. I don't recall. But I'll lose 7 points. Which.. is ok because I don't think I got anything else wrong.
For English I actually had my paper finished! Whoa! I know - I shouldn't be proud, but I am. I feel so refreshed and accomplished. But there is one more paper to go and it's due this upcoming Wednesday. No.... lame....
Lastly, I'm considering talking to my father about working at MCC. He could teach self defense. I know for a fact that he will be hired. We really need the money. He's a great teacher. That's a great job. $27 an hour is fair pay. I can't stand how slumped and financially desperate our family is. I don't want to lose my home or anything else. Literally, if I don't get a job and if my father's business doesn't get better, the only option is for me to move out. We might actually lose our home. I am very worried about it. If I have to pay mortgage, which I have done before, I know we are in trouble.
That being said, I hope my application to Walmart gains me entry into becoming an employee. Not exactly my favorite place to work, but from what I hear, the pay is good and the hours are good.
I need to sleep.... I'm out!

Give Me The Money!!!!

Today I got a lot accomplished. Yes - proud once again! *smile* 
I woke up around 11 AM. I started finishing my Hans Zimmer powerpoint. I got that done by 1:50 PM. I worked on my Hamburg, Germany powerpoint and finished that by 4:15 PM. I was driven to school. I sat through German. I laughed in class because we were discussing stuff and it was funny. We took a break. I put my drive in the computer, gave both of my presentations, and was done. Class ended immediately after my Hamburg presentation. The duration of both presentations was 45 minutes. The professor emailed me and told me that I got 100% on both presentations. Happiness! I have one more assignment and the final to turn into her and all is good! I don't know what my final grade will be, but I do know that I am not going to fail that class. *grin* I'm not going to fail choir or jazz ensemble. So I get A's there. I do not believe I will fail Music Appreciation. I did pretty damn good on that last test. I also handed in my paper and will write the other one on Saturday after the concert. Hopefully I do well on the final.
After class, I headed to the cafeteria where I knew Beth would be giving her seminar. Turns out, she was in the conference room in the cafeteria. I was escorted there. I sat in on Beth's seminar. I finally got to read her book Beth and Hanni: Safe and Sound. It's adorable. Afterward, Beth gave a small speech and showed us a clip of when she was on Oprah. The winners were announced. All went well. Although, my phone died. I almost didn't get a ride home. I considered asking Beth if I can accompany her to the train station because my house is right there. Then Nanami, a student working at the IT office, said hello to me. Fortunately, she was nice enough to let me use her phone and then, without an answer from my family, she gave me a ride. *grin* Thank goodness for nice people. I've been on the internet since I've been home. It's nice to have a night when freaking out over school isn't my main priority.
I just found out that Mr. iPod Guy is not going to give me the $50 until May 7. What the hell? I mean, this thing started in freakin' March. He should give me the money immediately. Why would you rip off a stranger? Ugh - I am seriously taking this to court if he doesn't return all of my money.
I know I've said this so many times, but I am going to say it and TRY my best (no, seriously) to keep this up. I want to be a healthier person. I want to live a routine life. Tomorrow is the perfect day to start. It will be nice out. I will try to get two 2 mile walks in with Jim on a daily basis, rain or shine. I will try to cut down on what I eat. Fortunately, I don't drink soda all that often. I am thinking about all this because I want to look good for my birthday and for my friend's wedding. When I return to NIU, I want to wow people. I want people to see a change. I want people to notice a spring to my step. (God, I hope this isn't getting to my head... ) I need to stay consistent. Why? I guess I am starting to feel the pain of being overweight. I am starting to get out of breath. I get tired easily. I'm never happy. I'm too shy... I have way too many esteem issues. I want to be a better me. I really do.....
The first thing to do is getting up at a decent hour. I hope to change these sleeping habits someday. The next thing is to keep my living space clean and organized. I think I've slopped so bad as a person. I wish I was a hamster, who has their food all organized, and their bedding all neat. Bah - dreams don't ever come true.... The next thing? Get involved.... I plan on doing all of this and becoming a newer, better me.... I wish my uncle was here to see this transformation. Maybe I just need to focus even more....