Confirmed

He died of a massive heart attack at 5:27PM last night.
He was fighting cancer and had just finished his chemo for the day.
My aunt was out getting protein milk/shakes.
He was found face down with his glasses broken and blood stained the floor and the curtains.
I feel like I'm sinking...
The wake is tomorrow morning.
There will be no funeral because he will be cremated.
I am searching for black clothes, but luckily, that's usually all I wear anyway.
But, I wanted to wear something else...
Something that says, Hey Uncle, I'm still here for you. I'll get through my life without letting you down..."
My parents disagreed and said that it would be disrespectful.
So standard black will be the attire.
I don't know how tomorrow will be.
I don't know how I will react....
I don't know anything....
All I do know is that I miss him a lot....
I should've called.... I should've done so much more than just be there.
I wish I could've saved him....