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I'm up really early and I'm going to go see my sister run in the Korean American Sports Festival. The thing is, I can't see her run. What the hell? Am I supposed to be a support when she hates me? I don't get it... I feel like I was woken up for nothing.. *sigh*
Jun. 27th, 2009
Just Incredible
Jun. 27th, 2009 03:12 pmOverall, I was extremely bored the entire morning.
I was woken up at 7 AM and told to get dressed quickly.
We left the house at 7:50 AM, opened the dojang door for Mario, and headed to the competition site.
My sister and her boyfriend were already present.
I got to hang out with my aunts. Of course, the one from IL was oh-so-nice to tell me that I should lose some weight. "I'm telling you this because I love you..."
We ate lunch.
The blankets were moved to a different location. Everyone was sitting on the blankets. I was feeling tired so I laid down.
As soon as I did, the conversation turned to me. All of them had some commentary about my weight or my image. Oh, how my back was really wide, no waist, and such. My mother tried to cover it up by saying I gained the weight at college. They were all joking about me. I moved my head to the other side and covered my ears. Out erupted laughter because I was avoiding the chatter.
After they left, my mother and all the other Korean people, I laid there finally ready for silence and no more talk of my weight.
My aunt from IN started saying something that sounded like another comment about my weight.
"You know what the others were saying about your weight, your image...?"
Then something completely unexpected came out of her mouth.
"Don't listen to them. You are beautiful just the way you are."
What?! Seriously? She's not going to be one of the multitudes of Korean people who harp at me about my weight?
Incredible... I never EVER would've thought she would say that. Earlier I thought she was pretending to poke at me playfully and squeeze my skin.
I was so surprised. I almost started to cry.
Of all my struggles, she was the one to say "ignore them". Not my parents, not my sister, but my aunt who truly truly loves me.
She sees me for who I am.
She called me a beautiful person when I felt like I was mud on the sidewalk.
"You know why I love Jennifer? She is genuine and beautiful on the inside. So what if she's a little heavy set? She's a wonderful person and she's my son's wife."
When I was finally able to go home, I gave her the biggest hug before getting into the car. What she said, made my day. Something that my deceased Uncle Bob would always say. These two people love me for me and not my image.
Another great story that my aunt told me:
"Remember when you spent the night at my house with Ashley? That night, you came into my room, you were so little, only 8 or 9. You were really worried because you thought that Ashley was sick. You told me that she was crying in her sleep and was really hot. Sure enough, I went back into the room and Ashley had a fever. You drove with me to the pharmacy and read bottle after bottle of medication. You held it up to your eyes so close that not even a penny could be put there. I bet your eyes were hurting, but you never gave up until you found the right medication."
If my aunt could remember this time, but my sister can't. What does this say about how much I love her?
Ironically, I'm really happy that I went. I did not get to experience triumphs on the track, but I did hear words of wisdom that will help me mentally for the rest of my life. It came from a Korean person, a genuine compliment and word of encouragement....
I was woken up at 7 AM and told to get dressed quickly.
We left the house at 7:50 AM, opened the dojang door for Mario, and headed to the competition site.
My sister and her boyfriend were already present.
I got to hang out with my aunts. Of course, the one from IL was oh-so-nice to tell me that I should lose some weight. "I'm telling you this because I love you..."
We ate lunch.
The blankets were moved to a different location. Everyone was sitting on the blankets. I was feeling tired so I laid down.
As soon as I did, the conversation turned to me. All of them had some commentary about my weight or my image. Oh, how my back was really wide, no waist, and such. My mother tried to cover it up by saying I gained the weight at college. They were all joking about me. I moved my head to the other side and covered my ears. Out erupted laughter because I was avoiding the chatter.
After they left, my mother and all the other Korean people, I laid there finally ready for silence and no more talk of my weight.
My aunt from IN started saying something that sounded like another comment about my weight.
"You know what the others were saying about your weight, your image...?"
Then something completely unexpected came out of her mouth.
"Don't listen to them. You are beautiful just the way you are."
What?! Seriously? She's not going to be one of the multitudes of Korean people who harp at me about my weight?
Incredible... I never EVER would've thought she would say that. Earlier I thought she was pretending to poke at me playfully and squeeze my skin.
I was so surprised. I almost started to cry.
Of all my struggles, she was the one to say "ignore them". Not my parents, not my sister, but my aunt who truly truly loves me.
She sees me for who I am.
She called me a beautiful person when I felt like I was mud on the sidewalk.
"You know why I love Jennifer? She is genuine and beautiful on the inside. So what if she's a little heavy set? She's a wonderful person and she's my son's wife."
When I was finally able to go home, I gave her the biggest hug before getting into the car. What she said, made my day. Something that my deceased Uncle Bob would always say. These two people love me for me and not my image.
Another great story that my aunt told me:
"Remember when you spent the night at my house with Ashley? That night, you came into my room, you were so little, only 8 or 9. You were really worried because you thought that Ashley was sick. You told me that she was crying in her sleep and was really hot. Sure enough, I went back into the room and Ashley had a fever. You drove with me to the pharmacy and read bottle after bottle of medication. You held it up to your eyes so close that not even a penny could be put there. I bet your eyes were hurting, but you never gave up until you found the right medication."
If my aunt could remember this time, but my sister can't. What does this say about how much I love her?
Ironically, I'm really happy that I went. I did not get to experience triumphs on the track, but I did hear words of wisdom that will help me mentally for the rest of my life. It came from a Korean person, a genuine compliment and word of encouragement....
Stolen, But Oh-SO-Fun
Jun. 27th, 2009 04:47 pm1. This survey gets a little personal; can you handle it?
--- Bring it!
2. If you married the last person you texted, what would your last name be?
--- My sister? We already have the same last name. Not to mention, incest is no fun.
3. Were you happy when you woke up today?
--- No - I'm never happy in the morning.
4. When were you on the phone last? And with who?
--- couple minutes ago, sister
7. What are you excited for?
---The NFB national convention next week
8. What were you doing yesterday?
--- mike's bday/transformers 2
9. Honestly, who was the last person to tell you s/he loves you?
--- my IN aunt
10. What's the last thing you put in your mouth?
--- chocolate
11. Have a best friend?
--- more than one close friend
12. Are you scared to fall in love?
--- no
13. Do you think teenagers can be in love?
--- depends
14. Last person you wanted to punch in the face?
--- eh - let's not get into that
15. What time is it right this second?
--- 4:50 PM
16. What do you want right now?
--- Buffalo Wild Wings
17. Who was the last person you took a picture with?
--- my mom
18. Are you single/taken/heartbroken/or confused?
--- single
19. When was the last time you cried?
--- a few months ago.
20. Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
--- kinda
21. Do you find it hard to trust others?
--- yes
22. How fast does your mind change?
--- too fast
23. I bet you miss somebody right now.
--- Yes, my uncle
24. Can you honestly say you're okay right now?
--- i guess
25. Why do you think so many people cheat?
--- because they don't have good intentions...
26. Tell me what's on your mind?
--- thoughts about my aunt... missing my uncle. my aunt asked me if i missed him... lol what kind of question is that?
27. What are you looking forward to in the next three months?
--- all the mini vacas i'm going on, fall semester, DCI, other crud
28. Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing?
--- lol yup
29. When did you last talk to your number 1 top friend?
--- Not long ago
30. When is your next road trip?
--- mmm not sure
31. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell anything to?
--- yep
32. How's your heart?
--- crooked
33. Have you ever felt like you weren't important?
--- sometimes
34. Do you think somebody's in love with you?
--- No
35. What are you planning on doing after this?
--- prolly homework
37. Have you told anybody you loved them today?
--- yes
38. Who do you not get along with?
--- A few people
39. What does your 3rd recent text say?
--- K
40. What are you wearing right now?
--- t-shirt and shorts
42. When's the last time you had a grilled cheese?
--- a while ago
43. What's your favorite boy and girl name right now?
--- none
44. How did you feel when you woke up?
--- eh
45. Do you wish someone would call or text you right now?
--- No
46. Do you crack your knuckles?
--- yes
47. What were you doing yesterday at midnight?
--- online
48. What are your LEGAL initials?
--- SHC
49. Who's the first B in your contacts?
--- Bradford
50. When was the last time you laughed really hard?
--- yesterday
51. Your number 1 top friend walks out of your life, do you go after them?
--- No, their life, their choices... although it depends on the situation
52. Last awkward moment?
--- today
53. Are you afraid of the dark?
--- quite the contrary
54. Do you have good vision?
--- nope
55. Have you ever tripped someone?
--- who hasn't?
56. Have you ever slapped someone?
--- yes, i'm not sorry because they were wrong.
57. Are you Irish?
--- no
58. Do you use chop sticks?
---yes
59. Do you have any scars?
--- yep.
60. Is there someone you will never forgive?
--- Yeah
62. Name the last person to text you?
--- my sister
63. Would you marry someone 8 years older than you?
--- it depends...
64. Can you go in public looking like you do now?
--- No
65. What side of the bed do you sleep on?
--- i have a twin... no sides, really
67. What's the first thing you'll do on your wedding day?
--- probably a few nervous antics
68. Do you fall for people easily?
--- no
69. Has anyone put their arms around you in the past 5 days?
--- in a hug?
70. Do you miss the way things used to be?
--- sometimes
72. Song you're thinking of right now?
--- Green Day - Minority
73. Want someone back in your life?
--- yes and no
74. Will tomorrow be better than today?
--- maybe maybe not
75. What’s the color of the shirt you are wearing?
--- white
76. Has anyone ever sang or played music for you personally?
--- yes
77. Does it bother you when someone lies to you?
--- yes
78. Is there anyone who understands your relationship status?
--- i hope so
79. Are you a naturally happy person? Or is your happiness forced?
--- mm it's usually forced... i'm a pessimist... so that should tell you a whole bunch.
80. Is there anyone you wish would fall in love with you?
--- eh- come what may
--- Bring it!
2. If you married the last person you texted, what would your last name be?
--- My sister? We already have the same last name. Not to mention, incest is no fun.
3. Were you happy when you woke up today?
--- No - I'm never happy in the morning.
4. When were you on the phone last? And with who?
--- couple minutes ago, sister
7. What are you excited for?
---The NFB national convention next week
8. What were you doing yesterday?
--- mike's bday/transformers 2
9. Honestly, who was the last person to tell you s/he loves you?
--- my IN aunt
10. What's the last thing you put in your mouth?
--- chocolate
11. Have a best friend?
--- more than one close friend
12. Are you scared to fall in love?
--- no
13. Do you think teenagers can be in love?
--- depends
14. Last person you wanted to punch in the face?
--- eh - let's not get into that
15. What time is it right this second?
--- 4:50 PM
16. What do you want right now?
--- Buffalo Wild Wings
17. Who was the last person you took a picture with?
--- my mom
18. Are you single/taken/heartbroken/or confused?
--- single
19. When was the last time you cried?
--- a few months ago.
20. Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
--- kinda
21. Do you find it hard to trust others?
--- yes
22. How fast does your mind change?
--- too fast
23. I bet you miss somebody right now.
--- Yes, my uncle
24. Can you honestly say you're okay right now?
--- i guess
25. Why do you think so many people cheat?
--- because they don't have good intentions...
26. Tell me what's on your mind?
--- thoughts about my aunt... missing my uncle. my aunt asked me if i missed him... lol what kind of question is that?
27. What are you looking forward to in the next three months?
--- all the mini vacas i'm going on, fall semester, DCI, other crud
28. Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing?
--- lol yup
29. When did you last talk to your number 1 top friend?
--- Not long ago
30. When is your next road trip?
--- mmm not sure
31. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell anything to?
--- yep
32. How's your heart?
--- crooked
33. Have you ever felt like you weren't important?
--- sometimes
34. Do you think somebody's in love with you?
--- No
35. What are you planning on doing after this?
--- prolly homework
37. Have you told anybody you loved them today?
--- yes
38. Who do you not get along with?
--- A few people
39. What does your 3rd recent text say?
--- K
40. What are you wearing right now?
--- t-shirt and shorts
42. When's the last time you had a grilled cheese?
--- a while ago
43. What's your favorite boy and girl name right now?
--- none
44. How did you feel when you woke up?
--- eh
45. Do you wish someone would call or text you right now?
--- No
46. Do you crack your knuckles?
--- yes
47. What were you doing yesterday at midnight?
--- online
48. What are your LEGAL initials?
--- SHC
49. Who's the first B in your contacts?
--- Bradford
50. When was the last time you laughed really hard?
--- yesterday
51. Your number 1 top friend walks out of your life, do you go after them?
--- No, their life, their choices... although it depends on the situation
52. Last awkward moment?
--- today
53. Are you afraid of the dark?
--- quite the contrary
54. Do you have good vision?
--- nope
55. Have you ever tripped someone?
--- who hasn't?
56. Have you ever slapped someone?
--- yes, i'm not sorry because they were wrong.
57. Are you Irish?
--- no
58. Do you use chop sticks?
---yes
59. Do you have any scars?
--- yep.
60. Is there someone you will never forgive?
--- Yeah
62. Name the last person to text you?
--- my sister
63. Would you marry someone 8 years older than you?
--- it depends...
64. Can you go in public looking like you do now?
--- No
65. What side of the bed do you sleep on?
--- i have a twin... no sides, really
67. What's the first thing you'll do on your wedding day?
--- probably a few nervous antics
68. Do you fall for people easily?
--- no
69. Has anyone put their arms around you in the past 5 days?
--- in a hug?
70. Do you miss the way things used to be?
--- sometimes
72. Song you're thinking of right now?
--- Green Day - Minority
73. Want someone back in your life?
--- yes and no
74. Will tomorrow be better than today?
--- maybe maybe not
75. What’s the color of the shirt you are wearing?
--- white
76. Has anyone ever sang or played music for you personally?
--- yes
77. Does it bother you when someone lies to you?
--- yes
78. Is there anyone who understands your relationship status?
--- i hope so
79. Are you a naturally happy person? Or is your happiness forced?
--- mm it's usually forced... i'm a pessimist... so that should tell you a whole bunch.
80. Is there anyone you wish would fall in love with you?
--- eh- come what may
