There's Beauty in the Breakdown

Morning!

I woke up at 8 on this fine, crisp June day. The weather is in the mid 70's. The sky is blue and cloudless. I'm jubilant because humidity is hiding from me. I am fearless. Ready to confront the outdoors and let my spirits soar. Hopefully no crankiness today. I'm attempting to keep that part of me locked up. Chains and shackles aren't enough sometimes.

As I've said before, i have a lot to do today. Ready or not, here I come!!!

It's getting increasingly easier to breathe. The dark abyss of my mind explodes into light and I float with a smile on my face and a dream held tight in my hand. Evidently, I'm alive. I've shrugged off what was the past. This blanket shielded me from love, hope, freedom. It still lingers, daring me to return and bide by its many grotesque standards. All I know for sure is, I desperately want to succeed. I may venture back to that place which was bleak and desperate for the slightest movement. But for now, I shall pounce at this chance to be free, to see what is around me instead of sauntering backwards into nothing.

Won't you come with me? For I can't go alone. I must be dreaming... I must be...  Tell me, am I?

Candied Migranes

I am back from Taekwondo. I didn't really do much today other than that. i got to rollerblade around my neighborhood. I was paranoid about the sidewalk and falling, so I rode on the street instead.

We visited Player's Bench, a local music and guitar store. I want an electric guitar so badly. I won an acoustic. But you can't exactly play that at 3 in the morning when you are tired of school and want a break from life. Then again, I don't have the money. Disappointing....

I'm planning on hanging out with people tonight. Perhaps it'll be fun.

Oh, and I really want to go to Show of Shows in Rockford, IL. It's a huge showcase of all the drum and bugle corps in the midwest. I desperately want to go....... *cry* I can't drive... *sniffle* Tickets are only $25!!

Muh... money and no car sucks..