Winter Vaca

I don't remember the last time I managed to get to sleep at a decent hour. Last night I was up til.... 4 maybe? I think I have Delayed Sleep Phase Syndrome.... or something along those lines. I don't fall asleep til late late or in this case, wee hours of the morn early. 

I know it's been a week since I last wrote in this journal. A lot has happened since Thanksgiving.
Adam and I almost broke up on our 3 year anniversary. But all was saved on account of my persistence. 
Yes, it has been 3 years and six days today. 
School has left me stranded. 
I received a B in Braille. It wasn't what I wanted, but I guess I will survive. 
Jim is snoring at my feet and I wish I was doing the same. 
I guess I haven't been writing because I was so ridiculously emo these past weeks following Thanksgiving. 
Wednesday determines if I stay at NIU. Perhaps Sharon will put in a good word for me. 
I am eligible for academic dismissal from NIU. 
I am deeply depressed about it. 
I feel that I was unfairly tried. Music prof was a complete jerk about this entire test thing.... 
Bah - time to listen to more Muse. 
I <3, Muse. 

Stranded

Not many of my friends understand the feeling of being completely stranded without a way to get to a place that you may need to go. In fact, the only people who do understand are those who are blind or visually impaired. Yes, if you're thinking that I am grumbling about driving, it's true. I am extremely fed up with being trapped in my home without a means of running errands or driving with the windows down and the wind blowing my hair in all directions. It is wintertime, guide dog travel is NOT the best means of getting places. It's snowing hard outside. I didn't get to accomplish what I wanted today. In this town I live in, there is no means of public transportation. No bus like NIU and if I want a ride I have to rely on friends. I would gladly take Jim places via walking, but I feel really bad for him sometimes. You can tell he's trying his best to protect me. But walking more than 5 miles to places I need to get to... I don't want to overdo it. I love my boy too much to make him walk for hours like that.
I'm writing all of this because I was rejected a ride to run errands. No one was home all day. It only makes me want to live in New York even more.