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Jun. 8th, 2008 07:05 pmYesterday was incredibly difficult for me.
I am once again going to pull myself out of this rut. I've done this so many times, but what other choice do I have? Grit my teeth and move on.... I have so much to think and worry about. It's almost too real at times. I'm going to write all the things that I am excited about. Perhaps I can continue to anticipate these things and become happier as fall nears.
1. My birthday is in two days. I'll be turning 19. I'm pretty much the youngest amongst my friends. However, irony has it.. I act like I'm the oldest. *Muse Muse* I'm excited for a trip down to Chicago with my boy Adam. It will also be our two and a half year anniversary. He has promised to take me to the Shedd Aquarium among other places. Monday night will be a treat because I'll be going out to dinner with him and perhaps others. I don't know, it's more of an assumption because he kept it hushed up.
2. Taekwondo will be my priority. I will spend this month training until I get my second degree in August. I desperately want this for myself. My father is a difficult judge. I will have to test in front of him in order for his approval in promotion. I am excited for the hardcore workout and definite fun I will have. I wish I could take my Taekwondo and school along with me to school in the fall.
3. I'll be traveling to Smithtown, NY in July! 25 days of pure GDF... I can't explain how ecstatic I am. I will be finding myself a wonderful partner in crime and travel. I adore dogs , especially guides. To be getting one myself, makes me feel like I can finally be free from the dreaded cane. Although I never use it, I prefer not to get hit by a car. I don't use my cane because people have ignored it in the past. I do, however, travel with it in unfamiliar areas.
4. Things are looking up for my academic success for the new semester. Fall 08 will be my best semester yet if I stick all the plans I worked out with my coordinator and my father. I am currently under academic probation because of last semester's failures. Then again, a lot of that was caused by my environment, bad time management and organization, emotional wreckage from stress, among other things. I am just trying to get past my mind blocks and arrogant father.
So, life could be worse... Then again, finances being at an all time low can put anyone in a slump. I curse SSI and it's oh-so-annoyness... I don't want to ruin my chances of losing any SSI. I need pretty much every penny I get.
Till later, I say good night LJ. It was a pleasure writing this evening.
Over and Out, with love.
-SC
I am once again going to pull myself out of this rut. I've done this so many times, but what other choice do I have? Grit my teeth and move on.... I have so much to think and worry about. It's almost too real at times. I'm going to write all the things that I am excited about. Perhaps I can continue to anticipate these things and become happier as fall nears.
1. My birthday is in two days. I'll be turning 19. I'm pretty much the youngest amongst my friends. However, irony has it.. I act like I'm the oldest. *Muse Muse* I'm excited for a trip down to Chicago with my boy Adam. It will also be our two and a half year anniversary. He has promised to take me to the Shedd Aquarium among other places. Monday night will be a treat because I'll be going out to dinner with him and perhaps others. I don't know, it's more of an assumption because he kept it hushed up.
2. Taekwondo will be my priority. I will spend this month training until I get my second degree in August. I desperately want this for myself. My father is a difficult judge. I will have to test in front of him in order for his approval in promotion. I am excited for the hardcore workout and definite fun I will have. I wish I could take my Taekwondo and school along with me to school in the fall.
3. I'll be traveling to Smithtown, NY in July! 25 days of pure GDF... I can't explain how ecstatic I am. I will be finding myself a wonderful partner in crime and travel. I adore dogs , especially guides. To be getting one myself, makes me feel like I can finally be free from the dreaded cane. Although I never use it, I prefer not to get hit by a car. I don't use my cane because people have ignored it in the past. I do, however, travel with it in unfamiliar areas.
4. Things are looking up for my academic success for the new semester. Fall 08 will be my best semester yet if I stick all the plans I worked out with my coordinator and my father. I am currently under academic probation because of last semester's failures. Then again, a lot of that was caused by my environment, bad time management and organization, emotional wreckage from stress, among other things. I am just trying to get past my mind blocks and arrogant father.
So, life could be worse... Then again, finances being at an all time low can put anyone in a slump. I curse SSI and it's oh-so-annoyness... I don't want to ruin my chances of losing any SSI. I need pretty much every penny I get.
Till later, I say good night LJ. It was a pleasure writing this evening.
Over and Out, with love.
-SC
