- I've been tired lately.
- My crim project is done. It feels great to have it out of the way.
- Another project is due soonishly. However, it is about reducing your pet's eco footprint. Need to go buy poster board.
- Semester is over in about 3 weeks.
- Ethics final May 5th. FML.
- Don't have to buy stats book for the summer.
- Lease signed for next year.
- Worrying about money.
- I owe 2 people money. It equals $358.
- I haven't talked to social security in person yet. Today brings more phone calls.
- All I want out of this semester is to stay above a 2.0
- My roommate is due in a week.
- NIU School of Theatre & Dance is performing Carmina Burena this weekend. I plan on attending on Thursday.
What is it about spring? It seriously brings out the worst in me.
"You're not good enough...."
"Your blindness is your weakness."
"No, you can't."
Yesterday, I was told "no". Yesterday, I stood up for myself. Yesterday, I scraped by. Tiresome as it may be, I will walk on, harness in hand, one foot at a time, and with my head held high. Sighted or blind, or somewhere in between, I am able. Tomorrow will be another day and I promise, I will try even harder to show "them" who I am and who I want to be.
My Valentine's Day will never be the same after the shooting that took place at NIU my freshman year. How could I possibly be happy on a day when five lives were brutally taken? My freshman year of college will never be forgotten because of February 14, 2008. Forward, together, forward... I can only imagine what those who were close to the five victims must feel on this day.
I've finally figured out what's going on with my Bookshare and RFB&D accounts. Passwords and usernames have been retrieved. I did, however, find out that neither have proof of disability. GR! I need to find tutorials on how to use both services. Anyone want to be a mentor? I would greatly appreciate step by step assistance.
Phone calls have been made. Homework still needs to be done. Busy day.... It doesn't help that I'm on Mother Nature's shitlist either... Tomorrow will be epic.
What I want accomplished by the end of Monday:
- Ethics homework
- Stats homework
- E bio homework
- Criminology homework
- fax proof of disability
- phone call to social security
- visit to Star Properties for 1 bedroom apartment availability
- cash check from Courtney
- write check for water bill and gas bill
- find out about Judo club on NIU campus
So much to do in so little time... Still I am content... Gotta take the dog out and go to bed. G'night!
He proceeded to talk about how the weekend pass for the Metra had risen from $5 to $7. My father pulled up. I bid both men good night and walked away.
Here is the article.
I've come to realize that there are just some things about myself that I can never change. I will forever and always be surprised by someone else telling me I am beautiful. Accepting myself has always been a challenge. Accepting others because of my insecurities has also been a rock in my shoe. Tomorrow will be a new day and maybe ever so slowly I will become a better person than I am today. This isn't just a hope, it needs to be a reality, a way of life that has to be there for the remainder from today to the day I die.
Why do revelations always bring me to compose these entries? It's almost amusing.
My participation in the Washington Seminar has also allowed me to learn about others and about myself. Not many people can say that they have the guts to do what I've done in the past couple days.
Time is running out. Today I will visit MCC and accomplish what I couldn't yesterday.
Let's live, not trudge. Today will be tomorrow. No regrets.
I will be attending Carmen's wake on Friday. A huge part of me is already tired... I miss you.
Sunday: Gotham Comedy Club
Monday: Korea Town, Empire State building, Times Square
Tuesday: Lighthouse International, Gene's Coffee shop, school stuffs/fax, UNO for the evening
Wednesday: Trip to GDF and dinner at Carrabba's with MK and CL.
Thursday: Arrival at 5:30 PM, Indian food for dinner, Chillaxin' for the rest of the night
Friday: Hangage with KB and KC, TJ Max, Newbury Comics, the north face, Cheesecake Factory, smoothie at Paris Creperie, and dinner at Tupelo in celebration of elvis's birthday.
Saturday: Aquarium, dinner at Bretucci's
Sunday: Brunch at tupelo, exchange tshirt at newbury comics, harvard square garage, starbucks, explore newbury comics at that location, went to coop, CVS, maki madness with RT and friends
Monday: flight at 7 AM EST
OK, so I owe you an update.
I'm currently in NYC. I'm staying with my friend who lives in Queens.
My New Year was uneventful and the first day of my trip was a roller coaster. It ended well though.
I was taken to Gotham Comedy Club in Manhattan. Let me tell you, it's an experience that can't really be described in words. Laughter, laughter, and more laughter, but something else was included in the mix.
I can see myself doing standup. In fact, that is one of my dreams and kind of always has been.
I don't know where we are going today. Perhaps it is KoreaTown or Times Square or somewhere else. I plan on visiting GDF while I'm in NY and I hope to visit fiddle_pup while she's at TSE. I also hope to run into Jim's puppy walker while I'm here.
So, good trip thus far.
Hope to update later.
I got a Christmas ornament which was given away to the children and $80. Blarg. So, no real present opening for me.
Barb got me a key locator and some fudge for Christmas.
I got her an MP3 player. Blame Black Friday...
The move went fairly smoothly. I am almost settled in. On Monday night, I had a weird dream and I had another weird dream last night. So, that's everything in a nut shell. I don't know when I can update again.
Bye for now, LJ!
We are actually going to be leaving for Indiana in about 8 hours. Unfortunately, I was asked to leave Jim home. It is unfair to hi to spend Christmas day alone. Many may say, he's only a dog, so what? But I am rather disappointed that my family will not allow me to take him with. He's well behaved, clean, and quiet. Not to mention, he's my companion. Mingke on the other hand is timid, nervous, prone to bite, and overall, not a dog that should be around other people. He would be perfectly content being home alone.
My cousin also has a big back yard that Jim could play in tomorrow. He needs a Christmas with me and I want to provide him with that luxury. Plus a faithful hound by the fire is my cup of tea. I just want him to be happy, not lonely.
I just can't imagine Christmas without him.
- U.S. Govt- D (I didn't think I was going to pass anyway. The teacher had a thick accent and covered the material in a very disorderly fashion. He's a great teacher minus the fact that none of the material on his study guides are on the actual test. I didn't turn in the extra credit paper because it really wouldn't have made a differnce. But KCC accepts D's and so I wont have to take that class over again. YAY!)
- Psych- unknown (She said that everyone will get a C-, but the real grades will be submitted by Monday. I hope to God I don't get an F in that class.)
- Geology- C (I did OK on the final. I wasn't expecting anything better. As long as it's not an F, I'm OK with it. I passed and in my mind, that's all that counts.)
- Choir - A (It's hard to fail this class.)
- Voice - A (Same comment as above)
- Work out - Unknown (I guess it depends on if I pass my psych class. I plan on getting either a B or an A. It's all a difference of 3 hours of workout.)
I am in the funniest of moods right now. No one is awake and I am super giggly.
I fell asleep around 9:30 PM and woke up at around 4:30 AM.
That's something I wish would happen all the time. Perhaps it should be a little later though. 9:30 is a little too early IMO.
Tis the season to look at netbooks. I heard that Windows 7 is installed on some of them. I was also bribed by my parents about the possibility of them purchasing me a macbook pro if I lose 15 pounds by June. I've already lost some weight. So the bribe might work. *laugh* Anyway, does anyone know if the magnifier is included on Windows 7? I might purchase a portable disc drive to install Zoomtext on the netbook, unless it's a bad idea. I'm just tired of carrying this clunky laptop around. It's kind of heavy. All I know is that it needs to be lighter and I need to save my back the trouble of carrying such a monster. A smaller screen doesn't really matter much IMHO. I would like a powerful one though; one that would last me at least a couple years.
I took two of my finals yesterday. I was pulling a C in one class and I don't know what the grade is in the other class. I do, however, have to turn in a paper for my psych class which is the class that I don't know my grade in. Today I have to study, attend a review, and write a 5 page paper on blindness and reciprocal influences. Tomorrow if all goes well, I will be done with my semester with the exception of my work out class. My instructor is giving me until January 14 to finish my hours. I plan on getting a B for the course, which means that I will have to complete 26 hours of fitness.
In other news, I have my appointment with a KCC advisor today. I'll also look into their special needs office and ask if there are any other blind students on campus. Maybe I'll find one with a dog guide. Dekalb has a shortage of visually impaired people as does where I live now. I hope everything turns out.
I am suddenly hungry.Off to find some food.
However, I have very bad testing anxiety and I also am a huge procrastinator. Sad for someone who goes to community college. If I fail out of MCC, I'll probably die inside. Not gonna lie though, there are a few classes that really rocked the boat.
I'll be surprised if something goes right and I get a C for U.S. Government. I couldn't get into the computer labs to print out the documents I wanted to study from. Why? Everyone is in there printing out last minute assignments. That'll be me on Tuesday and Wednesday.
After 5 PM today, I'll have 1 final and a paper to complete Wednesday.
Not too excited about my psych or govt exams.
I arrived at MCC around 11:25 AM. I lunched with Susan. I had originally planned to work with the Rotoract club members on the Braille project. But I was hungry and wanted lunch first. Is that honestly a sin? I called and called. No one answered. They had already started without me. Not gonna lie, I'm kind of pissed at the lack of communication. The day passed slowly. I worked out for 45 minutes. (22 hours and 50 minutes to go!) Then hung out with Matt until I got picked up around 4:15. Barb's house had food. I snarfed apple pie.
We picked up the loveseat from the freecycle lady. The couch gets picked up tomorrow (Friday). They are both really comfy and are in very good condition. Not to mention, they came from a smoke free home. The decision has been made. Our living room will be zebra themed. We will purchase sheets to cover the hideous colors of the couch and loveseat. But nonetheless, making it zebra-like is very doable. So, Barb and I had moved the loveseat into her SUV all by ourselves. My arms are screaming cuss words to the high heavens.
Food was ingested and then Barb took a shower. In the meantime, I took the liberty of hacking into her facebook and writing a status message. It read, "Barb likes eggs in the morning." Sleep followed and I didn't really wake up until 9:15 PM.
I got Barb to sort all of her clothes and go through her dresser. A lot of successes for one Barb. She has a lot to donate to the Salvation Army.
I should go to bed now.
Tomorrow or today, whatever.... We will go to the apartment subleasers and sign a contract. The reality of the move is drawing nearer.